Despite a loving, idyllic family life I was perpetually unhappy with my life. I pretended everything was ok but inside I felt constant despair, self loathing, and massive resistance to anything good. In fact, anytime too much good happenedI expected the inevitable shit storm of bad that followed. It always came. After the birth of my daughter I had bad post partum depression and felt suicidal. That experience set me on the path to seeking help in any way I could find it. But it would be many years before anything really changed.

In a nutshell, I hated being alive and deeply struggled being a mom. I felt like a slave to my life. I blamed physical life for my misery, unhappiness and suffering. I blamed my kids for my lack of time, cash flow, and not having the experiences I wanted in my life. 

It’s wasn’t pretty. I felt really f*cked up. But until those beliefs became conscious for me, they wreaked havoc with my emotions, self worth, confidence, and self love.

When I decided I didn’t want to feel that way anymore I also decided I was going to to whatever it took to heal from the pain, shame, and pretending, and I was going to thrive.

I was eventually led to the Akashic Records and that’s when everything really changed for me. I saw my life from the perspective of my Soul and how the choices I had made across lifetimes impacted my current life, my struggles, and patterns. I received guidance on how to resolve the pain I felt in my life. I healed and remembered who I truly am at the core. I began to live from a place of worthiness, wholeness, confidence, and self trust. And that led to the money, time, and experiences I spent so long chasing.